i understand them or not,i have no control over my feelings,so i let them flow. Whatever hurts me or make me feel strange is because it is supposed to hurt me and make me feel strange. Calm witnessing is taking place.i act AS IF i have free will,knowing i dont,because this is the way daily living can go on. Life paints its own painting.
EVENTS HAPPEN,DEEDS ARE DONE,BUT THERE IS NO INDIVIDUAL DOER OF ANY DEED
What you are not
Let the body and mind work according to their own inclinations, and the conditions,but know you are not them.
Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj-Seeds of consciousness-
If you find your" here and now" intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options: α) remove yourself from the situation. β) change it. γ) accept it totally. If you want to take responsibility for your life, you must choose one of those three options, and you must choose now. Then accept the consequences. No excuses. No negativity. No psychic pollution. Keep your inner space clear.